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Wednesday, April 15, 2009

The Cat of our Dreams??

So, my mom emails me the other day and asks if I want a cute little black and white kitty. I have 1 adult male cat, who loves female cats, so I said that I would take her in. I thought that it was a kitten, but in fact was a HUGE ass cat. The previous owner had 2 weeks to get rid of her, so I felt bad and agreed to take her. Now I've got this big, hairy female cat that hates my daughter and my other cat. She cries all night, sheds like crazy, and has clawed up our screen. Ooo, this is the cat of our dreams! Not really. I have trying my hardest to give her away, but no takers. We want to get a kitten for my daughter, instead we got helga, the biggest fricken cat ever! She was so excited to get her, but that has quickly passed since she scratches the hell out of her. Finally, today my moms neighbor called to say that she would take her on a 1 week trial basis! Yippy!!! O, that cat better behave itself because I don't want her ass back in my house! Wish me luck that this lady loves this dang cat...... :)

Thursday, April 9, 2009

Where did my baby go??

The past 2 days have the most horrible and challenging days so far as a parent. My 2 year old daughter Taylor has been the pride and joy of my life. I had everything working according to plan. She is smart, funny, and since a young age, has had manners. I would beam with joy when she would say her "please" and "thank you's." I felt like mom of the year. She listened and respected me, and I felt like I had figured it out.
Flash forward to 2 months after her 2nd birthday. What the hell is going on?? Where did my sweet girl go, and who replaced her with satan himself? My limits have been pushed to their very edge and I have cried all the while. It is 8:15 at night and I have not eaten dinner yet because I have been in a 2hour battle with her. It started at dinner when she began throwing her spoon and yelling at me in what sounded like broken chianese. That went from the table to her "time out" spot, to which she would repeatedly would get up and run like it is a big joke. I must have put her back in her spot like a 100 times. When she wouldn't stay, I started spanking her butt with my hand. Back when parenting was easy I would say that I will not spank her, but use other methods. Yeah, easier said than done. Spanking her hurt my hand more than it hurt her, and she would just laugh in my face. I am shocked at how she acted towards me, and really hurt. I just put her to bed without her nightly bedtime story, and as I was leaving the room, she is being all sweet. Yeah, well I feel like shit, like I got run over by a car. I feel partially guilty about her behavior because my husband, due to the economy, has had to start traveling during the week to work. So, he has been gone for the past 5 days, and it really upsets her. I feel like she is acting out towards me about it. He is such a huge part of our daily routine, and with him gone, it really sucks. Whenever she is mad at me she yells out " I love daddy," and will start crying for him. Which literally breaks my heart, because I miss him too. We have 4 months until the next baby is born, and all of this pressure for him to get a steady job that has him coming home every night. He was to get hired on by AT&T. We were guaranteed the job, it was our dream job. Benefits, paid vacay, great money, right close to home. We waited for 6 months for everything to go through. Right after his final interview, AT&T had to lay off 6,000 people because of the slow economy.So, they put a hiring freeze on "external" candidates ofr jobs, and had to fill the postion with someone from the layoff pool. So here we are. He is gone, I am pregnant with a 2 year old who is obviously upset about it. We only agreed to have this 2nd baby because of the job he was supposed to get. But life has a funny way of kicking you in the ass. Now we have the baby coming, and no steady job. What the hell are we supposed to do??? Guess we'll have to figure this one out....

Keep on Keepin' on

When I was younger, my mom had a sticker on her motorcycle helmet that said "having children is like being pecked to death by a duck." Now that my daughter has turned 2, I am beginning to agree. I hope this phase goes by quick........

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Boobs Fall Down...

So. I am sitting in the bathtub with my (slightly possessed) 2 y/o daughter. I am 23 weeks pregnant with baby #2. All of a sudden, she looks at me and says, "aww." She makes a really sad face. "What's the matter baby?" I say. She looks at me and says, " your boobs." "What about my boobs?" I ask her.That's when she looks at me with sympathy and says, " they fall down, mama."

That's nice. YOU KNOCKED THEM DOWN!!!!!!


Doctor's Appointment

I have got my baby doctor's appt. this morning. Didn't sleep too well. I guess that's because I had a 1 pound mini-man tap dancing in my stomach. I hope that I can get the dr. to use their ultrasound machine so I can get another picture of him. When I had my 20 week ultrasound, he had his back to us, so I got a good picture of his butt and man parts! But I want a profile or something. My dad's 50th birthday is coming up, and I had our son's name engraved on a picture frame to give him. He dosen't know the name yet. But I don't want to put a pic of his balls in it! O well, we'll see. Taylor slept straight through the night last night. She has been in her big girl toddler bed for about 3 weeks, and is adjusting nicely. The 1st week was hell. But after I had a meltdown, things started to turn around. Well, I am off to make breakfast....

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Mommy Goggles

Looking at the world through my mommy goggles has changed everything that I think, feel, and do. How about you? It would be nice if someone would warn you that nothing will ever be the same again.

About Me..

Hello world. This is my first of many blogs to come. I want to use this one to let you know a little bit about myself. I am a stay at home mom of a 2 year old little girl named Taylor. She is my life. My new life I should say. I have been married to Kenny for 2 1/2 years...yes, you do the math! I am currently 24 weeks pregnant with a little boy, to be named Jackson. We live in a perfect little town in sunny Florida. I want my blog to reflect my life as a stay at home mom, a wife, and that ever present struggle to keep some of the old me alive. Where did that old me go? I used to call my alter ego, taquilleana. Yes, that is a name! I heard it once, and never forgot it. Sometimes she likes to come out and have a good time. Well, not for the past 5 1/2 months, but I am sure she will be back. I miss her sometimes, and I know my husband sure does! I have alot to share, and can't wait to get blogging! I am controlling, protective of my family, a little neurotic,extremely sarcastic, cynical, outgoing in the right situation, love live music, being outdoors, love taking naps, hot showers, and my cat Bean. I feel pressure to look pretty. I hate my dad, love my step dad. I am an only child. ONLY ONE in the whole fam. No cousins nearby, nothing. I grew up with my parents friends as my friends. I hold my emotions in, then like to erupt like mount sarah every now and then. I know I am a little bit selfish, but am loyal as a dog. I feel guilty when I put my daughter in front of the tv to get a break sometimes. I am always on the hunt for the latest, greatest baby products out there, so I will definately be posting about the diferent things I try and learn about.